SingleGirl: On the Brink (I think?)
Posted by SingleGirl - 16/08/10 at 08:08 am
Another week, another few dates with JockBoy.
At this stage, we more or less talk/email every day. This is good, right? We’re seeing each other once and sometimes twice a week. Also good, right?
And it’s only been about a month. Five dates.
So……… why can’t I relax and enjoy? Instead I find myself in a constant state of anticipation. I want to know how HE feels about me. I want terms of endearment and I want to claim my rightful title (see below). I want to hear any/all of the following:
**I really like you.
**You make me really happy.
**I love spending time with you.
**I want you all to myself.
In short? I want to be the girlfriend, dammit.
But can I ASK for that? No. I might as well pass him a note in class that says: “Do you like me? Check: Yes or No” because that’s about how mature and capable I feel.
At times like this, I’m sometimes forced to turn to my male BFF for what I know will be an affectionate smackdown. It goes something like this:
Me: I really like him and I want…
Him: Are you serious? Shut the hell the up.
Me: But I..
Him: Are you 16?
Me: Not but I…
Him: No, you aren’t. So stop acting like you’re 16 instead of the sophisticated, glamorous, world traveled, desirable woman that I chose to be my BFF.
Me: Ok, but…
Him: No. You will NOT ask him to be your boyfriend after 5 dates. Are you listening? You will not do that because it’s too soon and you need to go with the flow rather than scare the crap out of him.
Me: *sigh* Ok.
(Seriously, isn’t he great?)
And then I stiffen up and get back out on the field. Because as my male BFF reminds me, that excited feeling doesn’t come along that often. Why not sit with it a little? Wait and see. And after all, I reason, I’d rather hear these things from him because he volunteers them, not because I shook it out of him.
Prescription: Watch and wait…..
Until next time, a few more glasses of wine to settle my anticipating nerves….
